it’s been a while, i admit.
let me tell you guys some truth. I DO care who reads what i write, and i DO care that what i write will not go to waste. Yes guys, i am just like any other person. I am human, shallow and indifferent.
I need support to live, i suffer and slough in the middle of the night every single night in hoping that tomorrow will come with a new hope, yet tomorrow i’ll be doing the same thing again.
I regret all the minutes and seconds that i wasted doing nothing, or wasting, and yet i am still wasting my ages away.
I am depressed and lonely and suicidal all the time. I stopped believing in hope a long time ago, and i hate being talked upon behind my back, but i love listening to people’s story again and again.
I am as judgmental as hell and i choose who to help and who to not help. I am pessimistic about people opening up their hearts and showing their frailness to people although that moment is human.
Let me ask you guys a question, and please Do answer me, don’t just ponder about it:
Before you go to sleep at night, every night, can you say you’re a good person?
November 17, 2009, 10:25pm